{"id":16750,"date":"2023-03-11T17:05:49","date_gmt":"2023-03-11T17:05:49","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/?p=16750"},"modified":"2026-04-12T18:55:46","modified_gmt":"2026-04-12T18:55:46","slug":"mind-ramblings","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/2023\/03\/11\/mind-ramblings\/","title":{"rendered":"Mind Ramblings"},"content":{"rendered":"<div class=\"wpb-content-wrapper\"><p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=&#8221;16761&#8243; img_size=&#8221;medium&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text]<\/p>\n<h2>\u00a0<\/h2>\n<h2>Mindset and Reflections<\/h2>\n<table style=\"border-collapse: collapse; width: 100%;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\">\n<p style=\"text-align: left;\">Listening to Depeche Mode today after I saw Gahan and Gore the other night live on some late night show. Dm was a big part of my formative years.\u00a0 From songs like people are people, to policy of truth, behind the wheel, black celebration, princess di wears a black dress, personal Jesus, going backwards, just can&#8217;t get enough&#8230;\u00a0\u00a0 the list is sooooo long.\u00a0 The funny thing is dm in one ear, social distortion the other and crystal method and chemical Brothers in between.\u00a0 And now anything Avicii.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><\/p>\n<p>But with all the noise and everything seeking my attention, there is such comfort and joy for me in the song &#8220;enjoy the silence&#8221;.\u00a0 I know for many being alone with themselves ,like Chester from linkin park said in a interview, it is not a safe place and it finally got him.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><\/p>\n<p>I guess in my current state, in the disruption of injury, I am not in the persistent process and practice of acknowledging, absorbing and ultimately processing to silence training for triathlon focused endurance events.<\/p>\n<\/td>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\">\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><iframe src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/aGSKrC7dGcY\" width=\"560\" height=\"314\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<h2>\u00a0<\/h2>\n<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n<h2>Pause and take a look around me<\/h2>\n\n<p>So,\u00a0\u00a0 I walked out into the snow storms the last few nights when I couldn&#8217;t sleep.\u00a0 On my porch, looking out at the A on Old Main hill, standing and listening to the silence, grateful and appreciative of the joys and growths I find in this life.\u00a0 While things have been thick and heavy of late, I can still appreciate with a smirk, a wince and a smile that it&#8217;s &#8211; alright, alright, alright!<\/p>\n\n<p>Oh ya, and laryngitis, being voiceless when my livelihood and career depends on my spoken word, that&#8217;s been more humbling than I like to acknowledge.\u00a0 Speaking in hoarseness for over 4 hours today was an entertaining\u00a0 feat of frustration.<\/p>\n\n<p>So enjoy this tune.\u00a0 BTW, it&#8217;s not silent, but it&#8217;s worth the noise, at least to me it is.<\/p>\n<h2>Triathlon &#8211; Swimming &#8211; Back to activity &#8211; I think<\/h2>\n<p>Back to the pool. Back to the pool. Where no one feels that cool. Back to the pool.<\/p>\n<p>Lunch Swim &#8211; I have a lot of grace to wade through. My deep groin injury has been humbling. I can finally hold a pb without being in the work-through-the-deep-sore. My first 200 felt great. Time to patiently build fitness.\u00a0 Now to avoid all things see-food.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone wp-image-16762\" src=\"https:\/\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/03\/Screenshot-2023-03-11-at-2.53.17-PM-300x113.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"451\" height=\"170\" \/><\/p>\n<h2>One of my favorite reminders from a wonderful lady.<\/h2>\n<table style=\"border-collapse: collapse; width: 100%;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\">\n<p>Too many including me, are shackled with their camaraderie with the past. Staying tethered to a sunk cost that prevents me from being where my feet are now. In other words, to be present (consider the lilies of the field, how they toil not).\u00a0 By being better now I can seize opportunities and seek and shape tomorrow by improving today.<\/p>\n<p>The good Ole days, rife with absolutes &#8211; in the past. Sure,history is important , but if I don&#8217;t leverage the lessons learned, they fade to memories and stories that are often seen thru a lens different than the events as they truly happened.\u00a0 So.. here&#8217;s to being more curious, less judgmental and more actionable in being better and less paralyzed by demanding perfection of self and others. Unrealistic expectations are just future resentments.<\/p>\n<p>I and we can be kinder, more mindful, more self aware, less focused on the accumulation of things and more diligent in creating relationships and purposeful and meaningful friendships that will help us as death visits each of us in its own merciless timeline.<\/p>\n<p>Saturday thoughts.<\/p>\n<\/td>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/scontent.fslc3-1.fna.fbcdn.net\/v\/t39.30808-6\/334998717_561651089303504_2012332579371111179_n.jpg?stp=dst-jpg_p526x296&amp;_nc_cat=103&amp;ccb=1-7&amp;_nc_sid=730e14&amp;_nc_ohc=fkGkWZtlg5gAX8PVQv6&amp;_nc_ht=scontent.fslc3-1.fna&amp;oh=00_AfD0syLi8IuqFHfbc7lSWu1Fq-ka5SOyZR4bt1ugjHZXfg&amp;oe=64113A44\" alt=\"\" width=\"597\" height=\"296\" \/><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<h2 class=\"x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a\">Lesson from Ted Lasso<\/h2>\n<div>\n<table style=\"border-collapse: collapse; width: 100%;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\">\n<div>\n<p dir=\"auto\">NSFW &#8211; This clip has language that is questionable.\u00a0 But &#8211; this message&#8230;. Much like if an authoritarian group came searching for Jewish friends during the holocaust. Would I turn them over instead of lie?\u00a0 No, I would lie, protect my friends as long as I could.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a\">\n<p dir=\"auto\">Be curious not judgmental.\u00a0 I didn&#8217;t make the connection to stoicism until I thought about the line about questioning.\u00a0 One of the stoics practices is truly to question and get understanding through context.\u00a0 This was a method that Socrates often used.\u00a0 Not necessarily because he didn&#8217;t already have insight or observations, but to better understand who he was engaging with.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/td>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\"><iframe src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/5x0PzUoJS-U\" width=\"560\" height=\"314\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<\/div>\n<div class=\"x11i5rnm xat24cr x1mh8g0r x1vvkbs xtlvy1s x126k92a\">\n<h2 dir=\"auto\" style=\"text-align: left;\">I need to offload this somewhere (Where this blog is form me I post it here to remind me that even though I try to be indifferent or keep my opinions to myself, sometimes, I need to at least say and offload my opinions)<\/h2>\n<div class=\"x78zum5 xdt5ytf xz62fqu x16ldp7u\">\n<div class=\"xu06os2 x1ok221b\">\n<p>And lastly, Oh, Hey fanatical faith based nuts &#8211; Jesus wears a robe, you will have to arrest him for impersonating a female &#8211; robes look like dresses &#8211; he isnt coming back in a suit with a briefcase.\u00a0\u00a0 I mean seeing that hypocrisy and the God complex is so overbearing that you are blind to the injustices you are proliferating.\u00a0 Ego is the enemy.\u00a0 Just admit that you are narcissistic power hungry douchebags, I can stomach that, but as a faith based cis male, you are not chasing the Jesus I learned about that was crucified by his own kin.\u00a0 I really think he&#8217;d be crucified again, all things considered.\u00a0 Your group is rapidly growing as an antiChrist and an impediment.\u00a0 Marcus Aurelius had a few thoughts here.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m more and more convinced the fanatics and nut wingers blinded by some stupid political bias are too noisy, and I&#8217;d love to see more of the folks I know that exist, dig deep into their personal empathy wells and exercise courage that is needed for so many mentally ill and broken humans.\u00a0 We need more friends than enemies.\u00a0 The fact that opening up an underground railroad for any human to seek refuge and respite is needed is ludicrous.\u00a0 So yes, enjoy the silence.<\/p>\n<p>I tend to be indifferent and hold my opinions to myself, but we are quickly weaving a path that repeats itself through history.\u00a0 Why oh why can&#8217;t we learn and become better.\u00a0 Each time I hear the phrase &#8216; the good Ole days&#8217; I cringe.\u00a0 The fact that we are more interested in an unchangeable past instead of being where are feet currently are so we can determine, shape, discover and create novel solutions and evolve to better is mind-boggling.\u00a0 That it requires the precipice of crisis and imminent failure must make evil so giddy.<\/p>\n<p>The irony is deity or the lack of deity has never been my struggle, but humans, totally different story.<\/p>\n<h2>Franz Kafka (1883-1924)<\/h2>\n<table style=\"border-collapse: collapse; width: 100%;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\">\n<p>At 40, Franz Kafka (1883-1924), who never married and had no children, walked through the park in Berlin when he met a girl who was crying because she had lost her favourite doll. She and Kafka searched for the doll unsuccessfully.\u00a0 Kafka told her to meet him there the next day and they would come back to look for her.<\/p>\n<p>The next day, when they had not yet found the doll, Kafka gave the girl a letter \u201cwritten\u201d by the doll saying \u201cplease don\u2019t cry. I took a trip to see the world. I will write to you about my adventures.\u201d<br \/>Thus began a story which continued until the end of Kafka\u2019s life.<\/p>\n<p>During their meetings, Kafka read the letters of the doll carefully written with adventures and conversations that the girl found adorable. Finally, Kafka brought back the doll (he bought one) that had returned to Berlin. \u201cIt doesn\u2019t look like my doll at all,\u201d said the girl. Kafka handed her another letter in which the doll wrote: \u201cmy travels have changed me.\u201d the little girl hugged the new doll and brought her happy home.<\/p>\n<p>A year later Kafka died. Many years later, the now-adult girl found a letter inside the doll. In the tiny letter signed by Kafka it was written:<\/p>\n<\/td>\n<td style=\"width: 50%;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-medium aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/wp-content\/uploads\/2022\/04\/kafka-1.jpg?resize=376%2C529&amp;ssl=1\" width=\"376\" height=\"529\" \/><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<figure class=\"wp-block-pullquote\">\u201cEverything you love will probably be lost, but in the end, love will return in another way.\u201d<\/figure>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p><cite>Franz Kafka to \u2018the little girl\u201d<\/cite><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<table>\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td>\n<h2>\u00a0Some last and parting thoughts<\/h2>\n<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<table style=\"border-collapse: collapse; width: 100%; height: 24px;\">\n<tbody>\n<tr style=\"height: 24px;\">\n<td>&#8220;If a man will begin with certainties, he shall end in doubts; but if he will be content to begin with doubts he shall end in certainties.&#8221;<br \/>~~Sir Francis Bacon<\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p>So much noise about ABSOLUTES. I keep learning how much I don&#8217;t know each day I get older. I keep moving forward shedding my camaraderies of the past.<\/p>\n<p>While I love this movie, so glad I am not stuck living today in the past. Be where your feet are. Happy Monday!<iframe src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/7ABo4_Lhqpc\" width=\"560\" height=\"314\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<p>[\/vc_column_text][\/vc_column][\/vc_row]<\/p><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>[vc_row][vc_column][vc_single_image image=&#8221;16761&#8243; img_size=&#8221;medium&#8221; alignment=&#8221;center&#8221;][\/vc_column][\/vc_row][vc_row][vc_column][vc_column_text] \u00a0 Mindset and Reflections Listening to Depeche Mode today after I saw Gahan and Gore the other night live on some late night show. 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