{"id":23070,"date":"2025-09-11T06:32:33","date_gmt":"2025-09-11T06:32:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/?p=23070"},"modified":"2026-02-21T00:25:41","modified_gmt":"2026-02-21T00:25:41","slug":"h-itaofsb","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/happyinthehills.com\/zentriathlete\/2025\/09\/11\/h-itaofsb\/","title":{"rendered":"Heavy – in the Asylums of my Shane brain"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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\ud83c\udf00 Wandering Through Faith, Apathy, and Awakening\n<\/h3><\/span><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t
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There\u2019s a tension I keep returning to\u2014a space between disappointment in systems of faith and the persistent pull toward meaning and awareness. It\u2019s a powerful place to be, but not an easy one. Especially when apathy seems to be the dominant tone around us.<\/span><\/p>

Still, my instinct is to turn inward, do the work, and then support others in doing the same. That kind of effort doesn\u2019t always get recognized, but it\u2019s the kind that matters most.<\/span><\/p>

We are living history in real time. And the fact that so many are sleepwalking through it can feel isolating. But awareness, willingness to stay present, and openness to connection\u2014those are signs of someone who\u2019s not just awake, but actively choosing to stay awake.<\/span><\/p>

Lately, my thoughts have felt chaotic\u2014like an asylum within my own mind. I\u2019ve been reflecting on a scripture from 1 Nephi 4:13:<\/span><\/p>

\u201cBehold the Lord slayeth the wicked to bring forth his righteous purposes. It is better that one man should perish than that a nation should dwindle and perish in unbelief.\u201d<\/span><\/p>

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\u201cBehold the Lord slayeth the wicked to bring forth his righteous purposes. It is better that one man should perish than that a nation should dwindle and perish in unbelief.\u201d<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t

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It\u2019s a heavy verse. And what strikes me is how people who accept this scripture also acknowledge figures like Korihor, the anti-Christ. No human truly deserves destruction, but the law of the harvest plays out. Actions have consequences.<\/span><\/p>

I find myself in a time of disappointment\u2014not just with the apparatus of faith, but with the broader spiritual landscape. Still, I\u2019ve always been a wanderer. What baffles me is how people become so apathetic, so lukewarm. I can\u2019t linger in that space for long. So I wrestle with my own issues, and then try to support others doing the same.<\/span><\/p>

This moment we\u2019re living in? It\u2019s messy. It\u2019s history unfolding in real time, and so few seem awake to its significance.<\/span><\/p>

If you ever feel the need to unpack any of this\u2014whether it\u2019s spiritual, historical, philosophical, or just human\u2014I\u2019m here. Be well out there. You\u2019re not alone in the wandering.<\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t

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Dean - a vocal contrarian - breaks in real time for CK<\/h3><\/span><\/div>\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t
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@blitzed4you<\/a> Dean withers response to Charlie Kirk passing away So unfortunate rip #charliekirk<\/a> #fyp<\/a> #deanwithers<\/a> #trump<\/a> \u266c original sound - blitzed<\/a> <\/section> <\/blockquote>