vLog Update – Ironman Thoughts Weigh Heavy Today
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all right we’ll see if I can uh
work through this one I guess Iron Man’s hitting hard today so uh I’ve watched
a lot of people come through their experience and uh anyways I thought I’d uh missed it apparently it’s hidden pretty hard today um last night was rough with our kids and uh just twice so anyways maybe it’s lack of sleep maybe it’s uh lack of training and all of that has been shed to a large degree it’s time to get back to the things we do so um paint a picture story is a word
way back when I was a kid somewhere around 10 to 12 years old I think it was about 11. maybe my parents moved Us from Southern California up to Northern California and that was pretty rough
course you know not knowing as kids what’s going on or why the change and but it is what it is and our parents do the best and I think maybe part of that’s because I’m starting to understand and feel that myself so yes I am driving but that this is how I roll today it is voting day so wherever you are hopefully you can get out and vote in your own way
that uh makes us better humans so I’ll say about it but I remember standing there and on the TV I believe was Channel 13 ABC Sports wild Wide World of Sports in the WWE s and uh
for the first time ever while standing in a home that was new to us because we had just uh gotten into the home I guess we’d been there for a year or two or whatever
was on 6201 quincewood Circle it was in Citrus Heights California and uh I remember sitting there watching the TV and this thing came up and I talked about these
men and women the time was the Dave Scott era um but these men and women were going to add Hawaii Swim Bike and run over three disciplines of sports and I’m sitting here playing soccer and baseball and looking at tennis the other sports I go on to play and I wouldn’t say that I was excellent but
that was good had lots of talent I didn’t have a work ethic back then
appreciate no understand realize the efforts that would be required
for these guys to qualify to be at the world what was called the world championship you know at the time there were maybe like 300 people that did this and uh when I did California two weeks ago there were some 3 300 signed up in 2800 or so that finished
but to kind of paint that picture as a young 10 year old and then
on uh
wow October 23rd like I said it’s hidden strong today
to put it all together um
in 2019 driving to and coming back from 70.3 Iron Man Lucas still wasn’t even a glimpse in our eyes yet and uh he just had Astrid
and they announced that they were going to bring the full back to St George
and foolishly or otherwise I signed up for it and then started training for it
and then the pandemic became a reality that still many people I don’t know if it’s many or some regardless of the evidence that’s out there from death the effects and other things
but the pandemic uh changed the whole landscape of Iron Man and so it was deferred it was deferred again life kept jumping up with us having Lucas um maybe we had just found out about well I guess it was about the time when Lucas decided to show up was right after during the event because that would have been about the nine month period um because he was born in 2020 on April 28th so a little bit further down the roads more like July or anyways because when we found out that Liz was pregnant we’re trying to do the lineups and uh anyways it wasn’t lining up because I was out of town but we figured it out so
but here we sit October 23rd I had many an opportunity similar to training and trying to make this all work life experience Etc to pull the pin but you know what just like I was telling that ready to a buddy that I haven’t seen for about a good two years uh just in Maverick just a few minutes ago and you know I was telling them hey it’s hitting hard today but uh life is good life is great but uh to be able to put everything
together to hang on because I should have pulled the PIN probably like I should have never signed up but anyways
to fill the fulfill a dream is big I guess
and the bigger lesson learned with everything especially as a dad
and his Husband
is to remind myself to give space and Grace to others
so they can fulfill their dreams
that’s what Iron Man’s about folks is to
seek continuous Improvement it’s not always about performance it is about hanging on and enduring I had a mechanical during my bike ride about 30 miles in they realized I was running and this was after looking back I was running probably flat because
I was I could feel the softness in the tire but I didn’t want to address it and it just got worse and worse and worse and ended up getting off the bike 10 to 12 times to deal with it to Pump It Up to inflate it and ultimately a 90 mile 94 at the last aid station uh wonderful guy named Corey uh was 17 minutes left before he started sweeping um
help me correct a misunderstanding and uh with four seconds left to get on the run and finish the damn thing so folks um again I don’t think everybody needs to Iron Man I don’t believe it’s for everybody but it is for me
and uh yes like some of my faith-based experiences and life experiences Etc it’s good to be a human I’m glad for second opportunities for multiple opportunities for iterations and I hope those seeking and chasing their dreams I just don’t give up because this world is messed up we keep trying to make our children fit into a world curated by adults that don’t even freaking understand what this life was about who are cranky who are unhappy who don’t even want to be part of this existence yet they still want to Shackle children with their generational trauma their mistakes their shortcomings instead of providing them opportunities to flourish and seek their dreams as well so folks that’s what Iron Man is about for me is to help me from becoming one of those cranky dirty old douchebags like I said it’s a data vote it’s a day for opportunity for change it’s a day for the opportunity of progress the outcome’s never going to be like what everybody wants because it never is but uh I can tell you from personal experience some dreams are worth chasing some aren’t but uh
let’s do this for the kids folks
but yeah this is heavy I guess still processing it so back to training as quickly as I can I’ve been in the pool once and uh been walking around and stuff it’s time to get on the bike in time to maintain this level of what I do for as long as I’m able and uh yes I needed to shed off some of the the weight and maybe that’s you know Fitness mat or fatigue Mass Fitness and I guess with stress and other things too so
I tend to wear my emotions on my sleeve and so I don’t have many and I guess I’d stored up a whole bunch through this one so thanks to my wife and to my family for letting me be this dumb and stubbornly stupid and foolish um but I’m sure there’s going to be many many more to come I don’t know if it’s going to be the full but for sure the 70.3s that’s my jam I love it so hopefully it’ll keep me straight and keep me uh chasing my best self or my better self or the self that I need to be when I feel that I’m not being as good as I could so all right well we’ll see if I can share this I may have to cut this one up a bit maybe not uh maybe the rawness will help somebody so
like my wife said she married an Iron Man I finally did it