reflections – zentriathlete

10 Jun

Pressure Is Not the Enemy — Unbounded Pressure Is

And when the thief of comparison slips in, when someone else’s perception tries to overwrite my own lived truth, it disrupts the small glimmers of joy I’ve earned. Confidence wavers. Sentience blurs. Navigating that monster — and the smaller monsters orbiting it — carries a cost I still don’t...

01 Jun

The Freedom We Preach and the Control We Practice

We talk about freedom like it’s a virtue we all agree on — but the moment we’re close to someone, we tighten the reins. This is a story about parenting, neurodiversity, constitutional design, and the quiet work of building humans who can actually self‑govern.

06 May

The Handle I Can Hold, The Load I Still Carry

By #ZT
In Agency, Discernment & Systems, 2026 Check Ins
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A little Duck Duck Goose! There are days when the ego cards get stacked in ways I can’t control. Not by merit. Not by skill. Just stacked. I’m handed a scenario that feels unwinnable, or at least engineered to be.

22 Apr

When the Map Doesn’t Match the Terrain: Notes From the Asylum Between My Ears

By #ZT
In Agency, Discernment & Systems, 2026 Check Ins
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Literacy isn’t always limited to reading Every so often, a conundrum wanders across the asylum between my ears and refuses to leave quietly. The latest one arrived through a familiar doorway: someone encountering information that didn’t fit their existing frame

22 Apr

Top of Mind – Work Sphere Related

By #ZT
In 2026 Check Ins, Agency, Discernment & Systems, !St;ll I Pers;st
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As Ellucian Live Is Closing: The Reckoning and the Work A post crossed my feed this week — Simon Sinek noting that people don’t need my polished certainty; they need what I’m actually learning. That landed with the kind of

20 Apr

A very unplanned post today – but the subject matter as a father of kiddos – this haunts me

Charlize Theron – Retelling her lived experience – weapons/violence as a 15 year old girl As a Dad and ever observant – this hits hard Walking through the Browning Museum in Ogden on Saturday, I felt the old muscle memory

19 Apr

The Cliff I’ve Stood On Since Four

That hive rule is just the Golden Rule in work clothes — the whittled‑down heart of the commandments, the part Jesus said mattered most. Treat others as you’d treat yourself. Everything else is scaffolding.

18 Apr

Grief, Stoicism, and the Strange Work of Carrying What We Lose

A heart that’s been broken is a heart that’s been loved. One line from a song, but it names something I keep circling back to: grief doesn’t follow rules. It doesn’t care about your training cycle, your calendar, or the

20 Apr

2021 – April 12 – Triathlon, ego, communication, paradoxes (reworked)

By #ZT
In 2021 Check-ins, Personal Reflections & Check-ins
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paradoxand More One of the central paradoxes of communication is: “What was said , what was heard , and what was meant rarely ever match , leaving a tremendous gap in much of human communication.” This was pretty straight forward